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One up, one down, and one inbetween.
Jan. 12th, 2003 09:26 pmWell,
Today was a kinda inbetween day. Got stuff done, though not as much as I wanted, and my lungs are killing me from working ourdoors in the rainy weather. I'm still coughing and wheezing quite a bit when I breath cold/wet air. The prednisone has not been as effective as I had hoped it would be, and it is really messing with my sleep (which can be a very bad thing for bringing on seizures).
I have to go back to work tomorrow, and I'm not really looking forward to it. Had a long talk with my boss. He is being honest that if our office doesn't bring in more work, I may also be out of a job. I think he is looking into retiring. It kinda makes going into work less positive when I know that I might lose my job, not because of anything I did wrong, or even if I do everything right, but just because too many other things are screwed up.
But on the other hand, I do have a job to go back to, I am respected there, and until I know one way or the other I am going to stick it out. I have been looking at other jobs, but they are few and far between, and the employers are getting really picky. I think if I make it through this, I will be in pretty good shape.
So, all this is making me feel inbetween. There is other stuff too, like Iraq and North Korea still in the air, and still feeling like there is too much to do (which beats nothing to do), and not enough time to do it, and no time for friends. My life seems to be about shuffling limited resources of time, money, and health. I guess I'll just try to take it easy until I get healthy, try to get the stuff doen that I can, and try not to stress about what I can't fix all by myself.
Today was a kinda inbetween day. Got stuff done, though not as much as I wanted, and my lungs are killing me from working ourdoors in the rainy weather. I'm still coughing and wheezing quite a bit when I breath cold/wet air. The prednisone has not been as effective as I had hoped it would be, and it is really messing with my sleep (which can be a very bad thing for bringing on seizures).
I have to go back to work tomorrow, and I'm not really looking forward to it. Had a long talk with my boss. He is being honest that if our office doesn't bring in more work, I may also be out of a job. I think he is looking into retiring. It kinda makes going into work less positive when I know that I might lose my job, not because of anything I did wrong, or even if I do everything right, but just because too many other things are screwed up.
But on the other hand, I do have a job to go back to, I am respected there, and until I know one way or the other I am going to stick it out. I have been looking at other jobs, but they are few and far between, and the employers are getting really picky. I think if I make it through this, I will be in pretty good shape.
So, all this is making me feel inbetween. There is other stuff too, like Iraq and North Korea still in the air, and still feeling like there is too much to do (which beats nothing to do), and not enough time to do it, and no time for friends. My life seems to be about shuffling limited resources of time, money, and health. I guess I'll just try to take it easy until I get healthy, try to get the stuff doen that I can, and try not to stress about what I can't fix all by myself.
